Tonight I humbly asked for prayer from the elders of our church. This has been a rough road over the last few months, I hope one day to share the details. As we called on God and cried out to Him I felt so humbled. I felt like a little child clinging to hope. After our time of prayer someone said you should feel "flattered" that God has chosen you to go through this experience. Honestly I never thought of it like that....."chosen". He knew I was going to experience this, He planned it perfectly, not to say that He wants us to suffer, but in suffering we are made stronger.
I love this verse.
Consider it pure joy my brothers when you face trials of many kinds,because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4
Wow.....I'm still working on the "joy" part.
May you too, find a deep joy in all your trials.